the past month i have paid very little attention to God. not in the sense that I’ve forgotten him, many a day i’d stop and feel Him watching me, just being there for me…. i acknowledge His presence, utter a few words of thanks, a whisper of praise, sometimes a sigh either of exasperation or relief…. i know i’ve been amiss in my prayer life, in devoting many minutes to communication with Him, but in my silence He is always in my thoughts…. i keep trying to discern where He’s leading me… am I veering away off course, or am I just following what He’s got planned for me… it’s funny how over the years we are so uncertain about things, and yet we make decisions, after much praying and discussion, and then looking back years later we see His hand in everything. as if we didn’t even have to really decide, as if the choices were there, but the BEST choice was always crystal clear, it was just our fears and our misgivings that muddied the view. always, always, when i think on these things, i remember this song:
i never knew what brought me here
as if somebody led my hand
it seems i hardly had to steer
my course was planned.
a destiny that guides us all
and by its hand we rise and fall
but only for a moment,
time enough to catch our breath again
although in my case that somebody isn’t so anonymous, and it’s not just some unknown thing called destiny. i know it’s Him. and there are dark moments when i can’t seem to trust, but when i reach into my heart, and when i feel Him holding me in His loving arms i know there’s no reason to be afraid.
He makes all things beautiful in His time….
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