It is not enough that I think. Every so often there is a need to re-evaluate my life and my direction. Just because I’ve told the Lord my life is His doesn’t mean I’ve ceased to stray. Just because I know that I want to get to Heaven doesn’t mean I always take the necessary steps to get there. My life is such that I don’t have the BIG temptations that other people have — like drugs, or drinking, or extramarital affairs. My life instead is very ordinary. So my temptations come in simpler things. Simple perhaps but more insidious. If I had the will to live the ideal life, I would get rid of everything that I don’t need…

which includes my books…. except the Bible.

all my stuff… the projects, the distractions that keep me from serving my husband, my kids, my God.

live simply.

It’s so hard to strike that balance between want and need… even things like books for the children — am I raising them to be intellectuals, or as servants of the Lord? And if we don’t take the time to develop our gifts, then neither are we serving God the best we can.

… April 2006…. unfinished.